I came from another place, and another time...okay, perhaps not "time" time, but within reason. I was born and raised in the middle of a corn field in a couple of small towns surrounding Decatur, Illinois and basically moved directly from those places TO Florida about 11 years ago. Where I'm from, at least during the time I came from there, "country girl" meant something else. Perhaps a smaller town gal, a little bit of a tom boy, but nothing extreme. But then I came here. Here, even small-town girls seem to be some kind of weird mix of masculinity/bi-sexuality/sex toy who likes to be man-handled and degraded/party girl/Aching for a Psychiatrist types due to their low Self-Esteem which they try to counteract in ridiculous ways. Apparently, the in-things to do in Florida for a LOT of women I'm finding in personal ads are to smoke pot and often think it's not actually a drug, mudding (Really? Where I'm from most women didn't LIKE to get dirty), UFC watching, can't be seen without a drink in their hands, experimenting sexually with other women or wanting to and then turning around and thinking they're not bi, football game cheering, frequenting bars and clubs even well into their 30s, having sex roulette with a variety of people, sometimes even freaking HUNTING, and tattooing and piercing themselves non-stop.
Now, I'm sorry.....but none of those things I'm into but even if I would have been, I can assure you that NONE of those things sound very lady-like and things that I think a REAL woman should have any desire to be involved with. Apparently down here there aren't many real women, just androgyny and bad morals and bad choices everywhere. In other words, just GIRLS, but not many women. Anyway, whatever happened to the smart, laid-back, more feminine but not "over the top" feminine (AKA--They don't have to go shopping every other minute to be happy) women who are selective with their intimate partners (AKA--In a relationship is when they'll do it) who don't like watching sports, can have fun WITHOUT needing alcohol all the time, don't enjoy violence or getting covered in mud, don't have any weird sexual desires for their own sex which are going to make me doubt if I'm really the team they want to play for, aren't foolish enough to be smoking dope, have grown up out of the bar and club thing once they're done with college, and who are comfortable in their own skin so they don't feel the need to DO anything to it because they think it's beautiful and great just the way it is?
Are they all gone? Do I need to move to freaking Utah or something? Oh, wait. They're mostly religious there, and I'm not. Or completely non-intimate even when they're IN an exclusive relationship. Which is not me. When in love and I'm exclusive with someone, I think that's just one more way you can express yourself and I am NOT strong enough to wait until marriage. Far from it. Sigh. So...what do I have to do to get a girl like this, even if it's only to be friends? Do I need to somehow force myself to become religious again just so I can get the attention of girls with brains, self-respect, morals, and a conscience? And do I need to get out of Florida so I can stop meeting so many women that have so many masculine interests they may as well start buying jock itch cream? I mean come ON. Where are all the kinds of women that I'm used to? Do I have to go back to the small towns I'm used to in Illinois???
